Rant On Paeds #1

Bismillah.

Dengan nama Allah yang maha menguatkan hambaNya.

Entering new environment never been easy. I guess everyone feel the same. My current posting is paediatrics, which you need to deal with children, and also parents. Tough task.

By the way, the main topic is this…..

“Bila kerja kat paeds nie rasa macam nak ada anak pulak”,one of my friend did say that.

Haha.

But i totally think opposite to her.

Being a doctor, we deal with orang sakit, bukan orang sihat.And bila aku tengok budak yang sakit dan how struggle the parents bila menjaga anak diorang yang sakit, aku jadi takut.The ‘what if’ game selalu bermain dalam kepala.

‘What if anak aku lahir tak cukup bulan’

‘What if anak aku kerjanya nanti keluar masuk hospital’

‘What if anak aku syndromic baby’

‘What if anak aku lahir tak cukup sifat’

Those crazy thinking berlegar-legar dalam kepala each time i think about children.

Coz seeing the parents taking care of their babies, make me wonder if i were the parent, will i be strong enough to handle the stress that comes together?

Will i be patient?

Will i have courage to continue taking care of my sick babies?

Will i be able to sacrifice my time, my job, my life?

Again, it’s not easy.

It never easy.

Tapi dalam hati ibu dan ayah, Allah tanamkan satu rasa yang takkan siapa mampu pertikai kekuatan rasa itu.CINTA.

Kerna cinta, aku tahu those strong parents willing to sacrife everything for the sake of their children.

Still remember.

My nephew got admitted in nicu for 6 months, needed oxygen support(not intubated, thank god)

My sister and brother in law sacrifice everything for him.Watching how they stand strong during those hard time, yup i admitted, i still feel amaze till now.

For all parents out there,

You guys have been selectively choosen to gain more and more rewards from all your hardship.

Allah takkan uji hambaNya di luar batasan kemampuan mereka.

Dan kerana Allah tahu kalian mampu, justeru dikuatkan lagi kaki dan hati kalian.

Moga itu menjadi ladang pahala untuk kalian merebut syurgaNya.

(Aku cemburu, kerna aku tahu doa dan usaha kalian tak pernah Allah abaikan.)

Wallahua’lam.

2 December 2018, 4:55 pm, Sik,Kedah