bismillah.
dengan nama Allah maha mengetahui yang nyata dan yang ghaib.
dengan nama Allah maha mengetahui yang nyata dan yang ghaib.
I saw one of my friend’s post in fb.it seems like she’s
having difficulty with her work.i’m not sure what exactly the problem but
sounds like she lost her motivation to keep continue in this field of
medicine.it’s not the physical that tired but the mind and emotion.i’m really
sure of it.and i know all my friends,seniors and juniors who have been working
in medical field feel the same like her.
As for me, i know this will soon come to me.i’m going to
experience it one day.the situation where i will lost all my courage to do the
work.lost my ikhlas and ihsan while working.want to get away from people and
work.physically and mentally exhausted.emotionally tortured.no doubt that i
will feel that way too later in my life.whether i will survive or not, i hope
and pray that whatever comes ahead will be the best for me.
Allah said, in one of the verse written in the quran;
“Allah does not
charge a soul except (with that within) its capacity..”
[Al-Baqarah 2:286]
Allah Al-‘Alim (The All-Knowing), surely His knowledge
encompasses everything in existence even before anything begins to
exist.Nothing at all escapes His knowledge.But easier said than done.to really
have faith full heartedly when being tested is not that easy.Alone, i’m not
sure but together somehow it’s gonna help.maybe not much but enough to stay
‘alive’.
I remember those time when doing internship in my college
hospital abroad. I ranted almost everything to my colleagues regarding my
works, postgraduates doctors, groupmates, nurses in wards,patients and even
about the hospital attendants.haha.not exactly ratting on them because most of
them are good to me, but somehow by doing that people will know our problem and
will try to comfort and console us.That is one of the way to distress me that
time.But knowing the workloads in our malaysian hospital i know that to be able
to run away just to pray is actually good enough.to ratting on someone, to
share the experience via blog and all are out of question.huhu.you will have time if you smart enough to manage
your time and schedule.
I always pray that whichever hospital i will choose later
for my housemanship program, may Allah grant me my support system.i am
independant but i know i have to turn to someone somehow.as i don’t really
depend on my family(the effect of being away from family most of the time
especially during crucial time) and i don’t have spouse to hear me
ranting(hahahaha.ok abaikan) i turned to my friends for everything and
everything.and i mean everything.you will understand if you are in my shoe.
I really hope she and all my friends who are in the not-so-good condition will
overcome their problems and being able to perform efficiently and ‘seikhlas
mungkin’ in order to serve our nation and of course for the sake of Allah.you guys are doing great!things are going to be tougher but kipidap dongibap!find
yourself and you’ll find the purpose of whatever you are doing right now.and never lose hope and never lose faith in Him.He burden us with difficulty and He also will lifts them from us.you guys can do it!
wallahua'lam.
11:17am, 7 September 2017, Tanah Air.
